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Thursday, January 10, 2013

My Acne

Hey guys,
I want to apologize again for the late and inconsistent blogs. For this particular post, I wanted to focus on an issue that I have and am still dealing with right now, and it is acne. My history with acne is long and sad story that has deep roots within my family genes. It had began during my Junior year of high school. My face broke out in cystic acne leaving behind scars on my cheeks. It soon faded during my Senior year and came back to attack during my second semester of college. What is weird about my acne is that it comes in phases. Sometimes I would have pimples and but it would not be bad at all, and then there are times when my acne issue could not be any worst. I remember crying myself to sleep praying that God would take it away from me, but it was only enough for me to be able to sleep that night just wake up the next morning and feel hideous all over again.Why can't I just sleep forever and or better yet dream forever--that way I don't have to remember the zits and scars on my face, that way people won't judge me for what I used to be.

In my past, I have tried drug store products such as: Netrogena,  Clean and Clear, Clearasil, Avalon Organics, Yes to Carrot, and Cetaphil. I have also tried higher-end products like: Clarisonic, Proactive, Skin ID, Mary Kay, Clinique, Origins, Murad and Mario Badescu. I tried doing DYI home remedies like:"Honey and Aspirin mask," "Green Tea mask," "Green Tea and Sugar Scrub," "Aloe Vera Mask," "Pises Powder," "Oatmeal mask/wash" and "Yogurt mask." There are still many more that I did not put on the list.

As of right now, my face is going through that weird stage again where I am breaking out none stop. I'm keeping my facial routine very simple with Cetaphil as the wash, and moisturizer. The acne moves like a pack on my face. Where there is one today, there will be 3 more the next day. And as it travels around my face, the entire pack travel as well. I've been feeling very insecure and depress lately. I also feel like I do not have anyone to talk to. When I go home to visit my family, I often get responses like, "What's wrong with your face?" or "How come you're breaking out so much?" My personal reply is, "I don't know. Why do you ask it as if I knew what was wrong with my face? If I knew what was wrong with my face then it wouldn't look like like this, right?  And if you know why don't you tell me--if not then don't even say anything." Sometimes, I get the occasional, "I know why you're face is like that. It's because you don't know how to take of it. You don't have the right diet and you're not washing your face. You're eating too much chocolate. You're eating too much pork." I even got, "You're eating too much watermelon." I would reply, "I'm a broke college student. I don't have the money to 'wine and dine.' If I don't have enough money to buy myself chocolate, what makes you think I have enough money to eat pork?!?!?!! " Honestly in my head I'm saying, "If you don't know what is wrong with my face and give me a good explanation then don't say it. IF YOU AIN'T GOT ANYTHING GOOD TO SAY ABOUT SOMETHING THEN JUST DON'T SAY IT. SIMPLE AS THAT!!!!"

I hate how ignorant people automatically categorize me and my situation as to something so simple. Having acne is not just a physical battle but also a personal battle that involves emotion and mentality. It also involves interaction with society and their judgements. It takes a lot for someone who battles with acne to wake up every morning, stare at themselves, and say that it will be okay. It takes a lot for a person with acne to put on a smile, walk out the door so the world can judge them. Have some heart and leave the negative, narrow, and unthoughtful remarks behind. That person who is battling with acne is also a human as well. But today, society looks at it as though it is some kind of contagious diseases. If everyone stopped their presumptions, and just take it as it is then this place would be in a better place. Life would not be so hard and people would not kill themselves over being hazed or bullied. If you finished my post and did not get anything, then at least go out today tell someone something positive. Help boost their self-esteem and it will help you as well, I promise.

Sincerely,

Norma-Jean Cook

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Fall Semester and a Heart Break


Hey guys,

Sorry for taking a break from writing my blogs. I've been on a killer roller coaster ride of my life. So what happened to me? Well, from the last time that I wrote, I had quit my full time job since my summer break ended and I began school again. I'm now working at Chick-fil-A as a part time job and going to school full time. It's not as stressful as I'd thought it'd be, but I just have A LOT to do. Thanks for always taking your time to read about what's been going on with my life.

September 11th of 2012 and I have a heart break already. On my last entry, I wrote about this boy who I have known for a very long time confess to me, and well we hit it off very well. We spent most of our summers together when we both got off work. We would go to wonderful dates and he would always be a gentleman and pay for everything. He knows how much I love the beach, so for the summer we went to the beach for weekend. I recently been telling him about how I wanted to experience a drive-in movie theater, and he actually looked up the closest place and took me there. What an experience. I don't ever play baseball but we decided to buy some gloves and throw some balls. Just the past 2 weeks, we vacated in a cute little cabin in Gatlinburg, Tennessee. Everything seemed so nice, but somehow I felt like something is missing.


Honestly. I never saw us in this way, but up until recently I began to have feelings for him. I like this guy. I really do or did. I don't get butterflies and my stomach doesn't drop, but I love being around him. I love how he would hold me. I love how it seems like he never wants to let go, but still something didn't seem right.

I'm a person who loves talking to him. I want to know more and more about him. I want us to be able to talk about anything, but for some reason I feel like I am limited to what I can say. He tells me all the time that I can talk to him about anything, but I don't feel like I can. It almost seems like our conversations never go the full yard. We talk about a lot of things but it never really goes the entire way and it almost always fall short. Maybe it is the fact that I don't get to talk to him on the phone and most of the time we only message, but even when we do talk in person, it seems to be missing something.

So, yesterday I got upset with him because sometimes he would say things that are unnecessarily (it wasn't even anything bit, we were talking about his eyes burning and that I like him better in glasses), and well, things got pretty messy. Maybe I was a little too impatient but it always feel like our conversations goes sour. I called him and told him that I'm glad that we weren't anything because I won't feel regret. I told him to leave me alone, and don't talk to me. I told him to not come visit me; I want my space, and I want my time. I hung up, and that was it.

I like this guy. I really do and that's probably why I'm so upset. Before all this, I never wanted us to have anything. Why didn't we just leave at friends??? I was happy this way. And then this summer happened and now I don't have the will to go anymore because it doesn't seem right, but I'm falling for this guy. :(


 
It's my own feelings and I don't even know how I feel. Even if I like this guy, do I think about us, or just leave it be. I think our story might end here. He wrote to me saying that he is sorry, and I know he is. He's sorry that he can't love me or talk  to me and express himself like how I want him to. It's hard on him. I know. And it's also hard on me too though. I feel like my emtional tank is empty. I want him to help fill it up, but it's not being filled. I'm conflicted.

Thanks guys,
Norma-Jean Cook

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

So He Confessed That He Likes Me

Hey friends,

How's summer coming along for everyone? I got myself a crappy full time job working my butt off but being underpaid. *SIGH* What a life!!!!

Something interesting that happened to me... A person who I have known throughout my entire childhood and even til now finally confessed that he likes me. We're just going to call him Blake Cole. I am not sure how react to it, so I talked about casually trying to not make our conversation awkward. Blake told me he really does like me and have had a crush on me for 2 years now. Just yesterday he asked if I liked him and I gave him an honest answer.

"I can't say. You know that I dislike indecisive people but I'm not sure where I'm at. I really appreciate everything you have done for me. You have always supported me, but I'm not going to fall for something that will hurt or disappoint me in the end."


He said, "Funny, seems like you're afraid." I replied, "Why shouldn't I be afraid? Have you shown me that you are reliable time and time again?" Now, don't get me wrong, like he said before, HE'S A GREAT GUY, but he has bad habits and these are habits that I can not tolerate like smoking. (He's trying to quit ATM.) Sometimes he's a butt-hole and argues with me. (pointless) If I know this about him already and he is still the same, why should I like him if I know it's something that I can not put up with?  (It's not that I'm afraid, but why am I going to put myself in a position where I know I will get hurt.) Blake then tells me he understands where I am coming from, and we sort of left it at that, but was I too harsh on him? Do you think he's hurt because I was too blunt? Are we really just friends or can there be more??? SO MANY QUESTIONS!

Well Until Again,
Norma-Jean Cook

Monday, May 14, 2012

Summer OFFICIALLY Starts

Hey Y'all,

It's been a while since the last time I post on here. So let me just do a little update on what's been going on since the last time I've posted.

FINALS were a pain, but like always, I worked really hard at it and did relatively well. My final grades were three As, one B, and one C. I wished I did better, but I guess I can only do so much.

Now, I plan to work during my summer break and just save up because it's been really hard for me financially because I'm a young college student who is paying her way through school. Plus, on top of that, I have bills to take care of and working at a fast food place that only pays me 7 something is not helping me much. :( But then again, I can't complain much because beggars can't be choosers. I just have to tough it out until I finish school.

I'll update you soon when I get the time.
Until then,

Norma-Jean Cook

Monday, April 9, 2012

My Mother Always Give The Best Advices

I was born into a family with 5 other siblings. My mother had 3 boys and 3 girls, and as I was growing up, I feel like I have always connected best with my mother. I don't want to be rude and say that none of my other siblings had that kind of relationship with her, but I was the second to the  last child and I was the baby girl. I was very obedient, and it seemed like everyone else were a rebel. And because I listened to her, she always thought me to be the bigger  and better person. At the time, I did not care much about these advices, but now, I realize how much these have helped me become a better person.

These are the best 2 advices ever:

1. "Hlub tus loj, zam tus yau." = "love the older ones, forgive the younger ones"
You have to learn how to respect and love the ones who are older than you. It doesn't matter if you were right and they were wrong, you will have to respect them. You have to forgive the younger ones because they are not as mature and they are bound to make mistakes, so forgive because they did not mean to hurt you.

2. "Txo yus lub hwj chim."  = "Humble Thyself"
 
You can't always walk around being a big bad@ss dissing everyone and being a conceited narcissistic person. You have to learn how to humble yourself so that others don't hate you and in the end, you become a great person. A perfect example is Jesus Christ, and I want to live a life just like him because he was someone who knew no sin but lived among the sinners so that he can fulfill his mission to the world. He was a very humble guy. :D





I understand now, how important it is to love others and humble myself. Thanks for reading, I hope you guys will read this and use it in your everyday life. Be patient my friend and everything else will fall into place with these advices and the Lord's help. ;)

Until Again,
Norma-Jean Cook


This picture was taken in 2010, Hmong New Year
Taken 10/10/10, My mother's birthday

Thursday, March 29, 2012

She Did Not Ask To Be Rape!

Check out the URL about the News Report:
http://www.twincities.com/localnews/ci_20239885/ramsey-county-charges-be-filed-rape-14-year?source=most_viewed

I saw this news on an Asian social network, below the news report there were 300 comments talking about how it was the girls fault and that "she was stupid and was asking to get rape." I am as disgusted and disappointed in these people as much as I am with these rapists. Where is humanity? So I replied back, in the comment box, and this was what I said...

"This is very disgusting and disturbing. I want to say a couple words for those who are bashing and criticizing on the girl.

First of all, IT IS NOT HER FAULT THAT SHE GOT RAPED. Yeah, she did make a stupid decision, but I believe everyone should feel safe in whatever they do. She should be able to have fun without fear of being sexually abused. Honestly, maybe she knew the guys and maybe some of them were her friends, so even though they were gang members, she probably thought nothing bad would happen because she "knows" them. WHY CAN'T SHE HAVE FRIENDS WITHOUT FEARING THAT THEY WOULD RAPE HER?

I hate how people today have no heart or sympathy for the rape victims. I hate sayings like this, "Well, she was asking to get rape." No, NO ONE ASK TO GET RAPE. You cannot blame her it was her fault that she was walking home late, or that she wore a dress (a little too short or a little too tight). You can't blame her that "she was asking for it." She IS the victim, so instead of wasting your time making her the culprit, accusing her of her clothes being a little too tight or hanging out with her friends at night, try to do something proactive.

I believe that we can all do something to help in this situation. Educate the young men that it is NOT ok to touch a women in any way after she said, "NO". Teach the men how to be a gentlemen. Women should not need to be in fear that she would get rape. It should not be the women's fault. Teach our younger brothers, little cousins, and friends that it is not ok to touch a women in any way if she is INTOXICATED. Teach them to protect the ladies instead of hurting them.  "

This is very true guys. If we want to stop rapes or any kind of abuse, it should start with us. We should teach others. Anyways, I hope y'all have a good one.

God Bless, Be Bless.
Norma-Jean

P.s. Go out into the world and do one kind act, the world will be in a better place. Be your brother's and sister's keeper.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Hmong Online Translation!

WOW! There is a new online Hmong translator now! How cool! I've always wanted the internet to have one and now WE DO!!!

The Hmong community in the Fresno, California area were scared that the younger Hmong generations will lose their heritage and culture and so they launched the website. For more information go to here, http://news.yahoo.com/calif-hmong-community-launches-online-translator-194033336.html

I believe many families of the Hmong community anywhere has this fear of loosing their culture and traditions, and luckily, has I grew up, I went to a church that spoke in the native Hmong language. My church was almost an educational institution teaching the young children how to read and write in Hmong along with Sunday School. I am very blessed that I am bilingual and very literate in both the Hmong and English. Unfortunately, my brothers and sisters aren't so literate because they were as exposed to the written Hmong language as I was. This new cool tool, will definitely help the new generations on their language. The issue now is how to read the words because you can have a tool to translate for you but you still won't understand how to pronounce it if you don't know how to read it.





You can check out the website at http://www.microsofttranslator.com. This website is pretty cool; I've already went on and tried a couple words and sentences. Some word are translated too literal so the translation is not correct to the word and context that it is being used. For example, if you wrote, "How are you?" the translation comes out saying "kuv noj qab nyob zoo." It basically said, "I eat well, Hello". It's probably best if you just wrote a word instead of a sentence because it will probably be wrong. There are some flaws to this cool gadget but none the less, it is very useful.  I'm proud of you, Hmong folks who came up with this great idea. Thumbs UP! :)


Much love,
Norma-Jean